I carry people around in my head.
What do I mean by that?
I often carry conflict around with me. If I’m in conflict with someone it will often be on my mind. If it’s someone who’s a close friend or someone I need to be able to work with I’ll sometimes carry them around in my head all the time. When that happens I tend to end up overwhelmed by the conflict. Sometimes I end up feeling like the person I’m carrying around in my head knows and has actually intended this. The odds are that the person I’m carrying around in my head has no idea.
I became aware of this the other day when Mehrin said to me, ‘You don’t need to carry them around in your head!’
I don’t need to carry people around in my head. They don’t need me to carry them either.